WOW!!!!
I wanna be awkward too! Writing that post yesterday was AWKWARD FOR ME! I wanna hear what makes you guys awkward. Check out Seth's post then let me know. If you don't have an answer... you aren't changing much!
http://sethgodin.typepad.com/seths_blog/2006/08/awkward.html
Thursday, August 17, 2006
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What is awkward for me? Examinging my motives. "Why do I think that way? Why do I feel that way?" THAT is awkward. Relationships that require me to ask myself those questions, are not any easier. Exposing my true feeling, my true thoughts in those times is, well.... not a natural thing.
Why would anyone, ever want to feel awkward? For me, those are the only real times of growth and change. The tender times, when someone I really care about (mostly the people I care about what they think about me) push me to discover the problem on my own. I do not like it. It does not feel good. But, in those vulnerable, awkward times is where healing, change, purpose is found.
Shattering people's expectations of me makes me feel awkward. If someone thinks I'm never angry, it is awkward for me to show anger around that person. Probably because I don't want attention drawn to myself. Undue spotlight makes me awkward.
Being in new situations makes me feel awkward. This is because those times are filled with uncertainty. When this happens, I know I have to trust God, even when I don't have all the answers!
Wow! What a concept! If people would realize that they're not perfect and don't have all the answers, their life would be a lot easier. Not easier in the sense that they won't have things to deal with (because they will), but easier as in when they realize that the problem is in them and not everyone around them, they will be able to recognize the problem and look at it from a new perspective!
Being in relationships also makes me feel awkward. When I meet someone, I get extremely nervous because I'm putting myself in a position to be hurt again! I know that any relationship worth having is going to cause me pain whether I like it or not!
Also, in relationships, the other person sees the good, the bad, and the ugly in you! They may not see you on Sunday morning prasing God, but they do see how you live your life on a day-to-day basis. They see the REAL YOU, not the facade you put up for everyone to see!!
You know, it's hard to keep up that "I'm perfect, I do everything right" act! Everyone takes off their facade at some point~ My philosophy is: "Be real with yourself and others."
Thanks for writing this blog because it has forced me to take a long, hard look at myself about what REALLY makes me feel AWKWARD!
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